Tears

Last night I cried. Normally I would not make such a big deal out of this. I cried because I miss my Mother. I cried because for the first time I felt alone. I felt like I was just needed to be close to her. I have been missing my Mother a lot these last few days. I just never thought about what it would be like once she is gone. It's a hole in my heart. In the past I will fill that hole with drugs, alcohol and even food. Today I let the feelings flow and that is okay. It's okay to just say I am sad and move through it. I am doing what I need to do to get by. If I cry tonight that is okay too.