Been awhile since I have been here. Feeling a little anxiety this evening. Got offered a new job. Not the greatest of jobs for one reason is that they do not offer health care. I keep feeling like I just settle for jobs cause my back is up against the wall. So I let my anxiety fly for just a little while and now its time to bring myself back to reality. My unemployment runs out in 11 weeks. I have been unemployed since January. This is the first job offer. I need to accept this job. Do well on it and continue to move forward looking for my next opportunity. Who knows what it will be. I prayed for a job I got my answer. Just didn't tell God the specifics on what I wanted! :-)
So here comes the next part of this anxiety. I have had three interviews with these men. I have passed as a guy for all three interviews. Next week comes the test as I have to show ID and my ID still shows female. What do I do. Well I just suck it up and explain if I have to and move on.
I did not go through my transition thus far to be afraid. I am proud of who I am and I should not let this effect me in anyway. I just needed to get this out that I am having anxiety about it and what should I do.
I took it to my VA group of brothers on the Black Transmen site. Will get some of their experience, strength and hope on this.
The beauty of having a support system is one is never alone.
